9/23/2007

I'm getting my voice back! But at the same time, I'm half-losing it because I now have an almost-blocked nose. Hahah ahwelllllll.

The bicycles came yesterday! xD We're gonna assemble it later before riding into town to pick up some things. Yay! Haha it'll be painful though, arms are seriously aching after gym on Friday xD The third day is always the worst la walau.

Dinner yesterday with Isabel + family was good, great to catch up & see everyone again (:

I am so not geared to work. Have basically slacked my way through this entire weekend, doing only the bare minimum. There doesn't seem to be any motivation, the gears haven't kicked in yet. And when I think about it, I'm not really sure what I am/have been working for, apart from not disappointing people or making people proud. Apart from those expectations, I really have no idea why I worked so hard for Os, and why I'm kicking myself for not working as hard as I did this time last year. Sure, school's only just started but still, carry on like this and I'll probably fall behind which'll be very, very bad. I mean, the school's already talking about UCAS applications, references and personal statements, and I have no idea where I'm headed or what I'm working for, or which vague direction my dreams lie. But then, this is just self-destructive thinking because if I start to think there isn't any point, then I really won't work, which means I won't get those results, which means my options will all be completely closed which'll be bad, so.


Here's to self-motivation! (JIA YOU EVERYONE)

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On another note, I'm wondering what it says about your friendship when someone hesitates just to ask, Hey, how are you. There're pros and cons to this blog thing and just so you know, it's the World Wide Web, anyone could be reading what you write. People could know secrets you never divulged, secrets you didn't choose to tell them at all.

First cryptic message of the (school) year!
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